Once in a while there are people who rise far above their diseases to make a difference for others who are suffering through it. In the last couple of days this has exploded. Avril Lavigne has released her new single called “Head Above Water.” It takes the depths of Lyme to create this kind of goodness…Read more »
Cracked, Not Crazy
I am on a roll with the word “crazy” right now, turning it into fun productive things instead of negative destruction. I am enjoying my crazy cracks!! Even while sprawled out in public from heart failure, I am enjoying the process of growth and leaving the cracked dry desert behind.
Never in a million years would I have thought I would make this embarrassing moment public. After the embarrassment of being totally and completely vulnerable, I found a peace that I had never felt before. Growing up and through the troubles of life, I am finding a peaceful power in being vulnerable at times.
Do you treat yourself as you desire others to treat you?
We have all heard the Golden Rule, “Treat others as you would want them to treat you.” What about how we treat ourselves? How are we treating ourselves in comparison to how we want others to treat us? The negative self-talk is usually crueler than what others would say to us. What about self-care? Are we…Read more »
Days I Do Not Want to Feel the Pain
Not interested in feeling the pain of life every day. It hurts too much. It hurts so much that I simply do not feel the pain of it all today. Not the pain of disease or the chronic suffering from it. Not the pain of the decades of trauma and the consequences from others. Not…Read more »
Fear of Being Healthy
There are all kinds of reasons to be fearful of being healthy. As odd as it sounds, there really are. Once we recognize those fears that create barriers, we can move toward health more smoothly. Bridging the transition can be beautiful and yet there can be fear. Check out these legitimate reasons to be fearful…Read more »
Finding a Man Worthy of our Disease
It takes a man of great character to be worthy of a relationship with someone who has chronic illness, pain and trauma. Yes, I said that sentence correctly. There are many chronically ill people who desire healthy relationships through the journey of unhealthy bodies. Instead of looking at it like, “who would ever choose me,”…Read more »
Even “wipe-out” days are not as bad as they used to be. Had another wipe-out day today. Yesterday was a long difficult day getting to the doctor for help with my struggling heart. It took everything in me to get there but it was necessary. It was also worth spending the next day in bed…Read more »
Frame Your Trauma
There are times when I literally have to “frame” an episode of something that feels traumatic to be able to see through it. Giving it some kind of temporary placeholder so I can step back and see it differently, more thoroughly. Maybe it is a type of barrier so I can define what is truly…Read more »
Trauma Triggers: Chronic Illness
My amazement with trauma comes with the triggers it creates during chronic illness. In some ways, I have dealt with the actual traumatic incidents better than the backlash years later. Chronic illness has me more sensitive than ever. I feel like a pin cushion. Most of it is the odd interactions I have with humans that…Read more »