Calvary to the Rescue

Guns a blazing, here they come!! This weekend it felt like the Calvary came to my rescue. “I need help” seems like the most basic statement but it gets complicated and messy when we are chronically ill for years. It gets more complicated when we do not physically look like we are ill. So when…Read more »

Wipe Out

Even “wipe-out” days are not as bad as they used to be. Had another wipe-out day today. Yesterday was a long difficult day getting to the doctor for help with my struggling heart. It took everything in me to get there but it was necessary. It was also worth spending the next day in bed…Read more »

Frame Your Trauma

There are times when I literally have to “frame” an episode of something that feels traumatic to be able to see through it. Giving it some kind of temporary placeholder so I can step back and see it differently, more thoroughly. Maybe it is a type of barrier so I can define what is truly…Read more »

Heart Trauma

Walking through a current trauma trigger has been eventful the last few weeks. I have a heart condition and it has the most interesting way of bringing up the past and determining my future. This is not always a negative event but it is always amazing to me how I process the current event based…Read more »

Trauma Triggers: Chronic Illness

My amazement with trauma comes with the triggers it creates during┬áchronic illness. In some ways, I have dealt with the actual traumatic incidents better than the backlash years later. Chronic illness has me more sensitive than ever. I feel like a pin cushion. Most of it is the odd interactions I have with humans that…Read more »

At least I am ON the path…

Progress, I will take it. Finally on the right path, a good path. How many times through chronic illness have I felt like I could not find a path, any path, to save my life? It feels good, pure and peaceful to be on this path. It is slow, frustrating and overwhelming at times still,…Read more »

Turn off the lights!

Enough of the lights at night time! There are no curtains in my home that block out any light so the nights are filled with the glaring lights from outside. After years of this, I finally got smart and decided to wear an eye mask to block it all out. It is not the neighbor’s…Read more »